Anyways, the only thing I look forward to everyday is my online dating scene. I just hope I don't get caught chatting with girls online at work, but my buddy in another department is the one that monitors internet activity and he is a good friend and he said don't worry about it that he will delete the logs etc
I consider myself to be a decent looking guy but having been out of the game for so long my confidence was at an all time low until the other day when I started to get messages from girls saying I looked cute and hot etc. I suppose there is life after love. Human emotions are such a complex thing sigh. Ok that was random sorry.
Now I am dealing with figuring out what kind of girl I want to hook up with. My ex is a white girl from eastern europe decent although she has no accent etc. I am not sure what I want to try, I guess I need to hook up with lots of different girls so I can figure this out finally. I just hope I don't fall for someone too quick without giving myself the opportunity to really check everything out and figure out what I want.
I spent most of my life worrying about other people and what they want but now it is time to be selfish and figure out how I want to live my life. My goal is to date for about a year before settling into another relationship. I know I don't want to be single forever like some people do. I really don't like being alone and I prefer to have someone to share my life with, I just want to make sure this time I choose someone who will accept me for me and not try and "change me".
We all have flaws etc but I just need a chick who can roll with the punches and not try and fix me constantly. I do not need fixing. I like myself as I am, and my friends like me as I am. I have met other girls that were girlfriends of dudes I met and I would think, wow this chick is so cool and laid back and understanding, this is the kind of girl I need to find.
I just never thought I would be single again. I certainly didn't have any intention of leaving my girlfriend but now that the shock and awe is over with I am glad that she left me. I think she did both of us a huge favour.
Ohh I am getting a flashing msn from this Chinese girl I have been messaging - I got to go for now.
