Oh my God it's been 9 days since my last post, what an epic fail. Let me bring you up to speed on things. I finally called Veronica and spoke to her on the phone. She was wondering why I took so long to call her and said I thought it was a 4 day rule... I didn't really know how to respond so I just lied and said I lost her phone number and had just found it. This was on Monday. We talked on the phone for about 2 hours about a lot of different stuff. She was describing her perceptions of me from the night I went dancing with her and her friends. I have to say that her assessment was pretty accurate and I was surprised by just how intelligent this girl really was. I have always been attracted to intelligence and I guess that is because I have a hard time tolerating incompetence even though I myself can be incompetent at times. I guess I am just a hypocrite like most people
She told me that she thought I was attractive but wasn't sure about my motives and my desires. She said I was a bit difficult to read and that I seemed guarded in some way. She revealed to me that she was very wary of getting into another relationship and ultimately winding up hurt again. She said she had been enjoying being single and keeping things casual and enjoying having a nice big circle of male and female friends around here which I thought was cool. I mean no one wants to get hurt. I guess that is where the expression "it's better to have loved and lost to have never loved at all" probably comes from. Women can be very confusing... hell life can be very confusing. I wish I believed in God. I think that somehow if I had some faith in something than my life would seem like it has more purpose. For what is a man without a purpose? Without hopes and dreams?
